there's so much in the world
that i've yet to venture into
like, skydiving
and marriage.

sometimes i think,
what if my life were to end soon?
and i would never have had the chance to
accomplish all the things i wanted to

and it's sad
when i hear that children die
and to know that,
i've past that stage
without dying (yeah sounds weird)

but in a way
i can't help
but always think that my life
is going to last forever

i don't plan ahead
i live in the moment

i don't take precautionary steps
to ensure my health in the future
like exercising
or drinking milk
or studying




i'm like, a piece of wood



...

okay that was random.

anyway,
i keep thinking
what if my life ends?
what then?
would i be able to watch the flashbacks of my life
and think, "i had a great life and i don't regret anything"

but for now
if that were to happen,
i KNOW that
i'll think, "i should have done more in life"

and i don't want that!
i want to be happy.
i want to be able to look at my life
and think, "i lived well"

it's sad to know that
we all may die anytime
anywhere
and to die with regret
as the last emotion you'll ever feel
it's too much for me to handle.

i can't...
and i won't
die with regret.

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