You know that thing you always see in movies? How a guy and a girl bump into each other accidentally and as they look at each other, they feel a connection? I can't really describe it in words.. it's like you KNOW something is there, even for that split second when both your skins had contact, and you realize that that was a moment in your life that you would always look back on and think, "What if?"


Does that really exist in real life? And I don't mean that that person you meet by chance is gonna turn out to be your husband or wife but someone who could've made a difference in your life, you know? Like, fully change your perspectives and whatever views you had on things before would be set straight by this single person. And suddenly the world seems totally different, and what you thought was so right before, turns out to be something exactly the opposite.


I can't wait for the time when I'll get to experience life. Real life. Not this sickly routine I follow everyday. But a life of discoveries and things like that! To learn from my own mistakes, not from my parents' past experiences. I wanna find out something on my own.


And yeah maybe I'm just waiting on this pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. That fantasy of living a wonderful, fulfilling life. Chasing it with all these hopes and expectations and exaggerations of this wish only to be disappointed in the end. All these futile efforts resulting in a life of semi-selfsatisfaction.


I can't stand this. It always, ALWAYS happens whenever I watch intense, thought-provoking movies like Before Sunrise and Before Sunset! My mind just keeps wrapping around this topic and I get all worked up for nothing, cause this topic rarely ends happily. For me that is. So I'll just shut up and blog about it 5 weeks from now when I torture myself with this again.




p.s. This scene in Before Sunrise was totally sweet! And totally indescribable. You can see them looking at each other and feel the innocent tension! It just makes me tear abit. Yah i'm so silly right? I guess you have to watch the movie to understand it. I love this movie to bits!

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